AMMU's meanings

 Might be after loosing building trust is the most difficult one ......might be love can be reconstructed but trust can't be the same....... Might be on the name of responsibility we fullfill our duties as per our relations but trust can't be built.   I am sorry maa pa......I made your heads down....I hope I can move far away from you.....I am just being a burden in the name of responsibility..........it's my own doing which made me stand in this place.......so I am gladly accepting ........thanku for atleast thinking as responsibility

 I am hating myself....basically I love myself........but why am not satisfactory to myself ....... recently  my day is filled with tears atleast for once my lacrimal glands need to work.......why can't i reach the level to make my parents happy        Plz amiya change urself..... Mom dad I have a doubt.......I am ur child....born to both of you......this is the only place I am child......if you can't accept me then what can I expect from others or anyone........you want me to be adult.....so I will be........

 No one in my world want to see the child in me.....I might be 23 but I am still ur daughter....y do u want me to be adult....already adult in me never shares anything with you...she cries to herself....consoles herself.....encourages herself.....but the child in me needs attention for all small things she does.....she needs ur love......might be I am just a responsibility needed to be taken care of.....I hate myself for being like this.....I guess no part of me deserves love....I guess I might be a psyco in my previous life tortured many people....so I am suffering at this time.......might be many people hated me at that time....so now I hate myself this much...... What I am ....nor intelligent...nor smart....nor beautiful.....no brains with no beauty .........just piece of shit.....useless just put on weight to the earth and burden on my parents shoulders......why am I like this......no one loves me....I also don't lovemyself....