Wish never be fullfilled

 I wish I would a bit more smarter....not a dumbass 

        The original reason is that my dad likes smarter kids alot....he remembers them he helps them in anyway he can......he shared abt them whenever there is chance......

It's not like my dad don't like....he loves as I am his daughter ,he just accepted me as I am...he does everything for me....Pampers me loves me clears ally wishes...but at some corner of my heart I feel like an unworthy vessel.....being highly valued....I feel myself useless 

So I wish I would be a bit more smarter....but I can't be....this is what I am ....I am really thankful for my parents.....as they accepted the way I am



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